i just can't stop thinking.....
confused state of mind
feeling very sucky now
it's like a knife sticking it through my heart

whoever said time is the best medicine obviously had it easy

all the time

they keep flashing back in my head

Hate life

Sleep

I may appear happy

But nobody knows...

why does my heart ache so much

stop crying already........... stop.....

the song tells me to get through it...

but its just so hard to do

ppl think that i'm all happy, enjoying myself

but who really  knows and understand what i am really going through inside of me

hate myself for being this way

so useless...

nope, it still feels the same.

but i still got to put on a mask

if i lose myself tonight

will anyone be by my side

I'm sorry


To those that I hurt

To myself

To everyone

I'm really sorry

I got to help myself

I'm sorry

fuck this world k, seriously...
stop telling me other ppl have it worst cause i dun really give a fucking shit abt other ppl's problemzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i can stop, i would have stop!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOD DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Think I understand why ppl cut themselves when they are not feeling right

Dear mind

Can u stop playing fuxking mind games with me pls?

Thank u

Fuck la

Lowest point ever, god damn it

I gonna stop messing myself up

Stop talking to myself

Think positive

Kinda sucks

Feels so fucked up

My life's a mess

Have to pretend things are fine

I need help

I should seek help

Going crazy

I hate my life

Screw everything in this world

I hate it

I hate myself

I should go seek help

Why

Idiots

Damn it

Oh god help me please

Cried

Broke down

Tired

Headache

Want to forget

Cried

Tears

Torn

Sad

Depressed

Sad

Angry

Fucked up

Shit

Why

How

Why

Panic

Panic

Worries

What a waste

Down the drain

I dunno

How

Who

What

Why

Bitter

Die

Kill

Hate it

Spinning

Dear lord

Why

Praying

Helpless

Fucked up

Pray

Hate

Emotionally bankrupt

Why

Confused

Damn it

Damn it

Damn it

Damn it

Story
One day, a man was walking along the road and a car smashed into him

The end

Fuck, dumb story

What happened to the old me?

I used to be a very optimistic and happy go lucky person
What happened to the old me?

I used to look forward to things but now in dreading the future
What happened to the old me?

I used to be a very patient person but I do not have the tolerance for any bullshit and nonsense anymore
What happened to the old me?

Anxiety still exists within me

How can I be happy again?