perhaps i should be more assertive at times

a break finally........

and thing are actually tarting to look up!

i know you are the one for me.


i know i want to spend my old years with you.


i know i want to pass on before you do, so that i wouldn't suffer being alone should you go first.


if the skies were to open a hole, i would want to reach out for the stars and pluck one for you


if my heart does not know how to love one day, it will happen because you may not be there anymore


all in all, after all the above,


i just want to say,


i love you...

note to myself:

there are things that are beyond you, things that you can't change, and things that you should accept

but i can't take the fact that despite doing things, things are still not working out

been a bloody six months already, and yet results have been pathetic to say the least

what do i need to do to change this.....or is this really beyond my fucking control....

needing a break......

looking forward to it....

damm fucking tired....

i kinda miss blogging in a way

it gives me an avenue to express my thoughts, my frustrations, my feelings and my everything

someone gets upset if i do this

others get upset if i do that

do everything, yet the whole world gets upset

don't do anything, everyone will get upset

i can never do anything right to please everybody

maybe everything may be better if i just die

it sucks to be me at times

and it's happening all over again.....

why am i so blind each and everytime.....

i still haven't learn my lessons yet......

and this has come back to haunt my life again....

haizzzz............

sometimes, i wish i could do more with my life.....

it's as if something is out there, waiting for me, but yet it seems so far away

if i could turn back time, there's a lot of stuff that i would change

but guess it's too late for that now...

i still love her lots...

the terror that I face day in and out

not being able to retaliate against someone who slaps me, scratches my face, licks me at times, screams in my ears.... loving every moment of it when it's just a 9 months old baby doing it =p

have been going manga crazy these few days... more specifically I'm going thru a One Piece phase now... trying to complete 500++ chapters within the next few days... Nuts!

another week of freedom before I officially start work... All the best for me!!!

saw her back today... hmm...

baby album

http://www.pbase.com/tomato_photo/wai_yee

Lessons learnt from Genting Trip

1- Always bring along a jacket or sweater if one does not aspire to freeze to death in the smothering cold

2- Never, ever smoke in a hotel room if one does not aspire to sleep in a smelly room at night

3- Never ever go against the house in the casino if the house has been winning all the way

4- Aspire to win only half of your capital and walk away if intended target is met

5- Japanese food in Genting sucks big time

6- Bring your passport/IC with you at all times if you have a face of a young punk like me

7- Shopping can actually be fun in Genting

8- Hot, fried chicken is quite yummy in Genting

9- Starbucks is freakin expensive everywhere in the world

10- Sipping hot coffee, munching on donuts while taking a fag is quite shiok in a cold environment