Story
One day, a man was walking along the road and a car smashed into him

The end

Fuck, dumb story

What happened to the old me?

I used to be a very optimistic and happy go lucky person
What happened to the old me?

I used to look forward to things but now in dreading the future
What happened to the old me?

I used to be a very patient person but I do not have the tolerance for any bullshit and nonsense anymore
What happened to the old me?

Anxiety still exists within me

How can I be happy again?

Still not ok and feeling miserable all the time

God help me

I just want to be happy again

horrible week....

it was going smooth, then it just have to go downhill...

stop being a nervous wreak...

idiot... stop being an idiot...

stop...

urgh...............................................................................................................................................................................................

get control of urself and stop freaking out....

stop mumbling and stuttering... u sound like a fool...

fuck......

ed, u are such a loser....

Actually, I should just go screw myself since I'm so screwed up

Screw this world

I hate having to put on a mask in front of others when I'm obviously not feeling okay

Fuck it

Fuck it

Fuck it

Fuck it

to answer my own question, yes, i'm probably mentally ballistic cause who the fuck talks to himself for the past one hour?

does it mean i'm mad if i'm talking to myself openly all the time?

i just want to sleeeeeeepppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

Dear Lord, what should I do... please show me an answer......

dear Lord,

I have been undergoing this pain and darkness for the longest time

and it's tearing me up from the very fabric of my soul, inside out

i want to forget this pain and sorrow that i'm feeling

and all the grief, sadness, anger, resentment towards everything and everyone else

despair and anxiety has been eating me up every waking moment

Please Lord, I pray to you

pls shower me with your blessings and strength for me to move on

pls show me the light towards the path out of this darkness

i am tired and sick of everything and everyone else around me

i just want to be happy and optimistic again

however, if this means inflicting pain and hurt on other people

then Lord, I would rather much shoulder this upon myself and carry on

Thank You Lord,

for listening to me

i will start to pray more and i want to be happy again

I have been having anxiety and panic attacks recently.

Hands and feet keep trembling and shivering

The heart rate goes haywire

Anxious feelings keeps coming in waves after waves

Gone is my appetite for food

And I have not been feeling happy for the longest time

It really sucks to be me

i hate my life

period

nothing to live for anyway

why do i feel as though ppl do not understand me at times?

Or maybe, i just do not conform to other people's standards

我想我应该过不了自己那一关

去到哪，都有你的影子，

做什么，都是你的记忆

没办法，放不下就是放不下

在朋友家人面前显得坚强，但是心还是很痛

一个人的时候，眼泪不停的掉

好想好好的狠，却决不下心

只能好好的享受这酸痛的滋味把

好累，好累

以为放个假，会好一些

但是到最后还是空空的感觉

好累，好累......

stop my aching heart.....stop......