All my life, where I have been sheltered... a lot of stuff… I have not faced it myself… all along…

Perhaps that’s why…. When it comes to problems... I have never been truly able to face up to them…

It’s really nobody’s fault that I’ve a character of a small mouse…

Who hides up and curls up in its own little warm hole…whenever a problem appears..

Maybe it’s because I’m still a greenhorn when it comes to dealing with a relationship..

But how can that be an excuse when she has told me so many, many, many times already…

How can that be a valid reason when chances, after chances, after chances have been given to me…

The tears in her eyes….. the weariness in her tone….the jaded feeling in her……

It hurts me… to see her like that….…

But to her….it hurts even more…. Not to be able to receive….what she deserves…..

I ask myself all the time….. do I deserve someone like her….. but after all these….. I am starting to question myself… whether she deserves someone like me in the first place….

回想一下，可能从一开始，我们这个路程的出发点就不应该是这样开始的…..

If there is anything that I want….I just want her to be happy…..

You know you have to do something….

But what…

Think…think…think….

If I don’t want to lose her…

Just…think….