if you really want to know...

yes, i do miss you at times... and i do think abt you and the wonderful times we had...

if you really wish to know...

yes, there's still hurt inside of me.... especially when I think back on that day when i cried hugging you, and when I take a long look at the toys before I go to sleep...

if you really need to know,

yes, it was a big deal for me, trying to get over you... buying a pack of sticks the first thing I left your office, to get over it...

but..

as i said mention below, i am very emotionally detched...

and furthermore, my studies, my school work, my friends, my family, my social activities,

they help me heal my wounds.

they help me to get over stuff.

i guess i am not the same old me, when i get sad and depressed for a long period of time after a breakup...

maybe its because i'm older

maybe its because i want to concentrate on my school.

maybe its because i'm beginning to enjoy my singlehood....



why did I accept your decision?

it's because I thought that it might not be a bad thing, for us to be apart, to see what we really want...

Cause I could also feel that things were not going well between us...

Cause I did not want to be your hurdle....

cause that's what I really felt...


If you make a decision like this, then i'll just accept it.

i'm not like other guys,

I wun resist, I wun fight...

if you feel that its better for us, then I give you my blessings and walk away..

maybe its only in this aspect that I am abit similar to your ex... where we'll just accept your choice...



don't compare me with other guys, please...

you know what type of person I am...

I am me, so please just accept me for who I am...

and seriously, i am much happier, being me for what I am...








so yes, I do miss you and i do think abt you...

but i guess its not as much as i thought that it will be...



I know this will cause you pain and tears...

I'm sorry again, for I know I'll make you cry again...


I never intended to bring my inner thoughts out like this...
but if you really wish to know....