Where am I so bothered abut his comments? I know that it is constructive criticism and that only a true friend like him would say things like that. But I am still pretty affected...


Got me thinking about several stuff...

Am I a good son to them..?

Had I been a good boyfriend to her?

Have I been a good friend to them?

Have I been a good brother to them?

Have I been a good uncle to them?

Have I been a good grandson to her??





I have fucked up in my studies... and I am still fucking up my studies..

I've fucked up in being a son... I'm coming to 25 soon.. and I'm still depending on them...

I've fucked up in my relationships....

I've fucked up as a friend...



Why is it that I am so apathetic in my apporach towards matters...

why is it that I am be so detached...

How is it that I can find it in my heart not to take her back even though she has given me countless chances in the past??

How is it that I can just treat my family for granted...

How is it that I don't really showm uch thoughts towards my friends...




shucks..... stop wallowing in pathetic self-pity.......

do something about it...






and you have been saying that for the past few few years....

and you still have not done anything...


you're just a pathetic little piece of shit...