feeling more and more disillusioned with this r/ship ....

somehow... i feel that even if she were to forgive me...

things will still be the same...

we still wouldn't spend quality time together..

she will continue to spend more time with her friends and colleagues...

and i'll still have to depend on my luck to see if she's free....

it's like i have to make pre-appointments with her before i can get to even see her...

feels like i'm placed at the very last of her list...

or maybe... i'm really am the least of her piorities...

that's quite sad..isnt't it...

for someone to place the significant other at the bottom.....




oh well.... it's not as if i haven't been through this before.....