i don't know what i'm doing anymore...

skin is like totally burnt la....
pain pain pain pain pain!!!

And just when I thought that my heart couldn't sink any further after that day, it just goes on and sink to even deeper depths that I've have never known....

Heaven has a nice way of playing this kinda tricks on you....

this is just damm funny la...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LbRNQErHBgg&feature=related

Fri night was dope man.... absolutely crazy!!

ok, i know what to do now...

but will i be able to do it....

i don't know... but i'm just tired already..

and don't want to drag things on too...

just do it....and get things done with ba....

i want to be happy.....

曹格有一首歌，叫作世界唯一的你
歌词里是这么写:
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

and there's another part that goes:

就算让我伤尽天理
我什么都愿意为你
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意 我什么都愿意

love those lyrics…

thinking back...

I remember u told me once

that u will look for me if I go missing one day...

somehow...

I highly doubt that u will do the things that u said....

maybe this is just retribution for the things I did previously....

actually all i want is simple....

spending time with the significant half...

sharing joys and sorrows together..

being able to tell each other stuff....

caring and being concerned to one another...

all that i want is simple contentment...


seems that it's harder than scaling the highest mountain....

曹格 - 無辜

http://youtube.com/watch?v=7Mon-XpWLyw

也许这是最后的考验
当我再度遇见了你
是命运捆绑了我们
还是爱情相信了记忆
你的欺骗没有让我掉下眼泪
爱本善变的痛楚并非你的罪

爱是无辜的风筝
拉着最在乎的人
情已逝 我还在
注定一个人流浪

爱是断线的风筝
挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中 一步步
的坠落红尘

给不起的是你的天真
为了他你学会否认
不承认你给过青春
曾经爱过我的每一分
我多伤心宁成全你和他的吻
只好对自己的痛楚
不负责任

爱是无辜的风筝
拉着最在乎的人
情已逝 我还在
注定一个人流浪

爱是断线的风筝
挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中 一步步
的坠落红尘

无法挽救的温存
我是残破的风筝
宁愿在遥远的天空
看你转过身决定
去实现你和他的承诺

爱是无辜的风筝
拉着最在乎的人
情已逝 我还在
注定一个人流浪

爱是断线的风筝
挣脱一开始的梦
黑暗中 一步步
的坠落红尘

也许这是最后的考验
当我再度遇见了你

what happened...

how...

why...

from being together as a couple

to being together like strangers

maybe this should had never started

maybe we should had not met..

最遥远的距离....就是两个人在感情里...却像两个陌生人一样....无言无句...

from now onwards, i shall be known as the "2-3 hour every week" bf ... pathetic...

no wonder song writers get paid so much.... trying to think of lyrics is not an easy thing la!!

pathetic fool

that's who i am

Jay Concert

Rocks big time!!!!

Just the thing to end my day on a super high!!!

plans

Targets to meet for the new year

1. Get my drivers license by end of this year
2. Secure a job within the private banking sector or as an analyst in the investment field
3. Take more self responsibility
4. Bring my parents on a tour to Taiwan
5. Save enough for a trip to Europe with Joe at end of year
6. Pass the 1st paper of CFA
7. Be more proactive in doing stuff

Working towards those goals now!!!

彩虹

http://youtube.com/watch?v=RW5R25QH7_s

哪里有彩虹告诉我　
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静　
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我　
释怀说了太多就成真不了　
也许时间是一种解药　
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着　
你的身影这么近我却抱不到　
没有地球　太阳还是会绕　
没有理由　我也能自己走

你要离开　我知道很简单　
你说依赖　是我们的阻碍　
就算放开　但能不能别没收我的爱　
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我　
释怀说了太多就成真不了　
也许时间是一种解药　
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着　
你的身影这么近我却抱不到　
没有地球　太阳还是会绕　
没有理由　我也能自己走

你要离开　我知道很简单　
你说依赖　是我们的阻碍　
就算放开　但能不能别没收我的爱　
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑　要我怎么睡的着　
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕会绕　
没有理由我也能自己走掉
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药　
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开　我知道很简单　
你说依赖　是我们的阻碍　
就算放开　但能不能别没收我的爱　
当作我最后才明白

was reading through an article by a columnist in 8 Days earlier... The writer was talking about how long his flatmate was not getting any and was feeling abit cranky. Together with his other friends, upon realising that it has also been quite a super long time since they saw any action either, it got them thinking if there was anything wrong with them..

Hmm... is not getting any piece of action for a period of time considered not normal.... How come I don't feel it that way.... but upon reflecting on the last time.... wah..... it's really been quite a while....



hmm......

now that i ponder back...

i wonder....

should i had been so forgiving, given that the hurt is quite deep...

given that the heart was quite broken...

given the trust has been so shattered...

or perhaps i should be gracious...

and let bygones be bygones...

whatever it is...

all i know is that...

i ain't so trusting now...

and there's a sire wound that's just festering in my heart...

maybe time will heal it...

..

..


but only time will tell if it will ever heals.....