World Cup

World cup's here!!

Impressive teams so far:

Argentina- they are freaking awesome, although i suspect that they might be peaking too soon

Ivory Coast- They may be out, but their fast and powerful style of football is exciting and sizzling to watch

Portugal- Not bad in midfeild and defence, but they could certainly do something about their strikeforce

Spain- Torres is freaking fast, Villa is efficient, and Puyol is a shaggy beast!!!

Teams that have flattered to deceive:

England- Boring, one-dimensional football style and absolutely hopeless in attack.

Brzail- didn't catch their match, but from what i read, they don't seems to be very impressive. Nontheless, their squad is really quite terrifying, and i think that they'll warm up slowly as the tournament progress

Czech Republic- Destroyed by Ghanians. They need more muscle in their midfield and more varieties in their apporach. It's easy to shut them out if one can neutralise their central midfield

France- Need to change their tactics so suit Henry. No choice or other alternatives, as Henry remains their most dangerous player. Oh, and take out Vierra and put in Makelele.

fucking cold day today...

回到過去

一盞黃黃舊舊的燈

時間在旁悶不吭聲


寂寞下手毫無分寸

不懂得輕重之分


沉默支撐躍過陌生

靜靜看著凌晨黃昏


妳的身影

失去平衡

慢慢下沉


黑暗已在空中盤旋

該往哪我看不見

也許愛在夢的另一端

無法存活在真實的空間


想回到過去

試著抱妳在懷裡


羞怯的臉帶有一點稚氣


想看妳的看的世界

想在妳夢的畫面

只要靠在一起就能感覺甜蜜

想回到過去

試著讓故事繼續


至少不再讓妳離我而去


分散時間的注意

這次會抱得更緊

這樣挽留不知還來不來得及

想回到過去


思緒不斷阻擋著回憶播放


盲目的追尋仍然空空盪盪

灰濛濛的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去

一轉身孤單已躺在身旁

Go Back To The Past

A yellow and old light
Time is at the side, suffocating without uttering a word
Loneliness starts with completely no sense of propriety
Don’t understand the difference between light and heavy
Silence
Propping up jumps across strange
Quietly watching early dawn and dusk
Your body shape
Loses balance
Slowly sinks
Darkness is already flying around in mid air
Should proceed where, I cannot see
Maybe love is in another end of the dream
No way of living in real space
I want to go back to the past
I am trying to hold you in my arms
The sheepish face carries a bit of childishness
I want to see
The world you see
I want to be in your dream’s frame
As long as I can depend on being together I can then feel the sweetness
I want to go back to the past
I am trying to let the story continue
At least I don’t let you leave me again
Divert time's attention
This time I will hold you even more tightly
I request you to stay like this, I don’t know if I am too late or not
I want to go back to the past
My thoughts are unceasingly stopping memories from being broadcasted
Blindly chasing and searching, still vastly empty
The dusky night, I am sleepy but I don’t know where to hide
The moment I turned around, loneliness is already lying by my side

something seems ...wrong...

doesn't feels quite right....

dunno what it is....

but doesn't feels right....

blank..

the mind wants to think

but the mind is empty

blank..


hello...anyone there????

shouldn't you be thinking of something to salvage the situation???

knock knock!!

nobody's there???



yup.. nobody's here...


although i absolutely detest it when people say that i'm brainless/stupid/useless,

maybe they're all right...

otherwise.. why would they say that...


i am really something...that i absolutely fucking detest to be....


no wonder she can't stand me...

What Am I to You lyrics

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin true
What am I to you

Yah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

celebrated Kailin's bd today!!

i'm sorry...

..for not being good enough....

..for always not being to offer you anything....

..for being so shallow...

..for...the hurt i've caused...

..for the stuff that i did...and not did.....

i....truly sucks at being ... your..guy...

get out of my head, you fucking headache....

get out of my head...get out of my head..get out of my head....get out of my head,get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head ,get out of my head ,get out of my head ,get out of my head ,get out of my head , get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, get out of my head, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD!!!!!

fucking headache....

i dunno what's wrong with me....

why issit that other people can put in strong advice and arguments with lots of persuation, when all i can offer are soft whimperings and silence..

why is it that other people are able to make you smile when you're down, and all i can do is to make you worse

why is it that other people are able to talk to you so effortlessly, while i am always struggling to come out with sentances with you around....

why is it that when you're upset, i am not able to offer anything...

why am i like this...

ireally hate this me...

i don't recall being like this previously... why....


how can i stop being this me...

i really hate myself....

somehow.... the thin line in me feels as if it's being stretched..... and the durability and the elasticity is wearing thin...

4th June 2006

me asked: "you did a great job"
you snapped:" you weren't supposed to watched..."
me:"............"

"the reason i ate so slowy was to see if you will finish the fries, and you did"

"i am positively bored"

"it's like i'm eating alone with my food disappearing fast"

whatever....

even if i've tried talking, you'll just snapped back 'cause you're pissed.

i really really really dislike talking to you when you're like that.....


praised you for the great performance, and what did i get? An earful from you...

Thanks...

The MUAHAHAHAHA!!! post

really.... when i should be in bed at this time, but yet here I am, blogging away in this small little unknown blog of mine.. well, not really unknown, cause i know of at least 2 people who know the existence of this little unknown blog... MEOWY HAMMIE AND TIKO CHIPMUNKIE!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

Gonna study soon!!! Which means... i'm gonna be a low-income kid soon.... Gotta get a part-time or something to earn some Xtra moolah. If not, we Chinese have this ancient saying:" If you don't earn enuff Moolah, you will have to eat grass until you earn enuff Moolah so that you can afford to eat flowers"

HAHAHAHHA!!!!

FUNNY RIGHT????

HAHAAHA!!

hahahaha...

haha...

ha..

....

...

..

o_o"""

kkk, that's pretty lame...

....

Anyway, finally decided to go and further my studies. there's a part of me that's really quite excited about going back to my books. Guess will have to really make a lot of time for my studies. Can't let the folks at home down, after all that they have been through... Furthermore, it is THEIR hard earned savings that i'm borrowing to go for my studies....

Banking and finance, here i come!!!

loving the small kids more and more by the day!! Gosh, i really sound like an excited little girl... But i don't give a fucking damm!!!! THEY ARE CUTE LAH!!!!!!! Although kj sometimes do gets on my nerves with his attitude. hmm... feel kinda sorry for him... been waiting for me to play X-box with him, but i ain't home early for these past few days.... oh well.... guess will have to wait till sunday then..

Quitting my job soon.

Having the so-called ORD mood now. Man, there's really no spirit in me to go to work now... but for the sake of more MOOLAH, have to endure, and endure, and endure!!! which means... finding more ways to escape work????

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

on a more serious note, i gotta thank the guys at office for making my time there enjoyable with their niceness, although in terms of being nice,everyone of them lose to me hands down.

MUAHAHAHAHAAHHAA!!!!!

i suspect i am becoming more and more of a gym rat. it seems that if i miss my gym sessions... i will feel...uneasy... just like when i'm in need of a fag.... hmm... addicted??? me??? skinny little me, who's still skinny little me after 3 months of gyming??? A gym rat????? (a note to hammie: still working on my body of steel, so don't complain abt my skinnyness lah!!!)

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

status of my friends:

jx has gotten hooked up,

jh might be getting hooked up,

jo and derek has just gotten hooked off,

roy is as hooked on whateva on his "love-of-the-month" list as usual,

ying and liang are unhooked,

val is hooked on her fishes,

ada is hooked on salsa,

deb is hooked on arnold,

edward is hooked in china.

Celebrated the missus's bd and our anniversary last week. oh man, the cake was very very very rich. The chocalate shop/cafe/restaurant/boutique that i bought the cake from has a very very very very big kitchen. In fact, the kitchen is even bigger then the shop itself!. Think the business must be poor, din see many customers that day....eh... come to think of it... I was the only customer that day!!

anyway... managed to go on a secret mission to get her squadmates to sign on the card. hehehehee.... after buying the cake and stuff, was waiting to bring the cake out, when I realised I FORGOTTEN TO BUY A LIGHTER!!!! went to cheers to buy, and surprisingly, they did not sell!!! And the cahsier can still say that they will place an order for lighters in the future -_-""" Anyway, i was abit frustrated when i've decided to check my bag, to see if i had kept any lighters from last time. Luckily man... managed to find one!!! One of the mates closed the lights, while i brought out the cake. Hehehehe, funny thing was that because i was concentrating on not letting the flames on the candles get blown away, plus the fact that the whole hall was dark, couldn't see where she was...

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

but was a bit of an anti-climax towards the end after the candle blowing part... luckily they enjoyed the cake.. which was pretty big by the way!!

The next day, i went to the missus's house to pick her up for dinner at...... *drum roll* MAMESSION!! apparently, she had preffered another place and had thought that it might be boring... well, luckily madame hammie enjoyed herself despite her headache... We even managed to get the exact same table as we did last year!!! hehehehee, darling had still said that we were at a different table from last year, till we checked the photo. Guess who was right??

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!!!!!

Gave her 4 presents that night, hope you enjoyed them baby, just as much as I had enjoyed myself that night!!

Happy 1 year anniversary and happy birthday!!!

15 more min to Labour Day

Elections here!!! But then, there's no opposition contesting here, so it's a walkover. Ah... no chance to vote. Haha, dar have a chance to vote, though i suspect she might find it a hassle to travel all the way back to Tampines just to cast a piece of paper into a box. My thoughts... 1- Burn the Floor is really an excellent production. The dancers were all so awesome, the way they move, their flair, their style, their looks... The dancers were all either very handsome or very pretty. Switching easily from ballroom to Broadway style, from jive to salsa, they were technically astute. A pity it was a 1 hour matinee, not the usual 2 hr show. Oh well, at least the tickets are free, so I ain't complaining much.

2- Rushed to City Harvest Church after catching the dance production. My 1st thoughts upon reaching there is that it is like a concert. What with all the singing, and the jumping up and down, it really was an eye-opener to me, even though I had expected that CHC’s services were not ordinary compared to other churches. Haha, seeing Felicia onstage performing is really different from seeing her at work. Guess being onstage brings out a totally different side to a person. It’s just like saw Dar’s performance at MOS. I remember seeing Dar perform that night. I was pretty fascinated, that there is this side of Dar which I had never seen before. Hehe, the missus will surely be questioning me later when she sees this…..

Anyway, after attending CHC’s service, I must admit that the pastor is a good speaker. Hmm… but actually, after attending 2 of their services, I come to the conclusion that all pastors are good speakers. Maybe the political parties should consider hiring them as spokesperson for their rallies!!

I’ve noticed one thing about CHC and that most of its congregation are pretty young. My mum, upon learning that I went to CHC ( as usual, she rumbled my bag, and saw some of the CHC stuff), and asked me about CHC, and went on saying that CHC appeals to young teens in their 17-18, and keep asking people for money. I was about to refute the words she said, when I recalled that there WERE a lot of young people, and upon attending 2 services, well… there was an emphasis on donations. A part of the service that I found to be a little unsettling was when they actually showed a presentation about how much each individual should give according to their status. I mean.. come on… how much one should give should be up to them, shouldn’t it? And another thing about CHC was how it proclaims to be the best church here.. Hmm… I mean if you’re talking about a corporation, or a school or a sports team, it’s ok, as there’re RESULTS to show for, e.g. sporting results, profits and academic results. But this is a RELIGIOUS organization. Come one, even though I’m a free thinker, but ain’t you serving the Almighty One? Does having the largest congregation means that one is actually the best one out there???

I know Dar will want me to go there again…but I don’t find myself attending CHC… firstly, because I’m a free thinker, and secondly, I don’t particularly like CHC’s style… especially during their prayers in tongue… it’s quite unsettling to say the least… I don’t mean to be insensitive or whatsoever.. but when I first heard it… it freaked me out. It totally did, seeing everyone around me doing that…

3- Work’s ending soon… and its time to evaluate my options again…. Full-time studies??? But there will be no income… no money… and I really do want to let mummy take a break.. this morning, when I was watching TV, and Mummy was feeding KaiLin some stuff (like what she always does). I took a look on her face.. and suddenly, I realized that she looked really tired and worn-out.. it was kinda..sad.. that mummy actually looked like that… and then, I recalled what Waiyee’s friends said about Mummy on that trip to Down Under.. that Mummy was really energetic and fun with on that trip, and that she was quite refreshed… made me wanna provide Mummy with a trip too!! Anyway.. the point is that, its either work or study.. and if I study… mummy and father will have to provide for me.. and I really don’t wish for that… oh well… take things at a step ba….

flirt quiz

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

you ain't what you say

to you:

please don't ever say those again

you are not what you say

nobody thinks you are what you say

trust me, nobody will love you

if you are really what you say

and guess what,

there's a chipmunkie who's still in love with you,

and you know why?

that's because you AIN'T what you say

lessons?

my spelling is horrible... period....

i guess i need spelling lessons again 0_0"""

13 april 2006

was chatting with jo and lee earlier. finally, lee's dream gal (DG) has gave him an answer, saying that she feels more comfortable as friends, and asking lee whether she must be really forced into accepting this courtship. lee had replied, saying that it's ok, but then earlier on, he retracted on his answer, telling us that he should had said yes instead.

all i can say is.... WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT OF DOING THIS???????

obviously she prefers to be friends
obviously she's been saying or hinting that she's not interested
its so damm bloody obvious

and you still dun want to give up hope, you still want to force people to accept you
haizz... what can i say.. sometimes... preserverance do pay off all the time...

i'm only saying this as a buddy... don't waste your time, money and energy on her

MOVE ON!!!!

on to another buddy of mine
hmm.... last time... he used to be very persistent... in r/ships...
sometimes i feel that he's like a cockroach.. not in a negative sense.. but in a way that he juz keeps pursing and pursing and pursing

and now, the opposite is happening to him. JZ is the one, who keeps wanting him for answers, even though Jo has made it clear... (its prety complicated, and i dunno how to write this down)
well... if you really feel that... its more out of obligation.. then there's not much point in staying on.... if you feel that way... well, i juz kinda find it a pity, after all your efforts... oh well...

Just don't regret whatever chocies you may make.

on to a more positive side of things....

juz 3 words

I MISS YOU BABY!!!!!!!


opps... that's 4 words... heheheheee...

I'm a nine!!

Test that i took from dar:


the PeacemakerTest finished!

you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE.
"I am at peace"
Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.
How to Get Along with Me
If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
Ask me questions to help me get clear.
Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
Let me know you like what I've done or said.
Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.
What I Like About Being a Nine
being nonjudgmental and accepting
caring for and being concerned about others
being able to relax and have a good time
knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe
What's Hard About Being a Nine
being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
being confused about what I really want
caring too much about what others will think of me
not being listened to or taken seriously
Nines as Children Often
feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
tune out a lot, especially when others argue
are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves
Nines as Parents
are supportive, kind, and warm
are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

should i be a hawker??

i think ever since i have gotten into army, i have become... more stupid... . think its because of the environment... i need to be in an environment that constantly stimulates my braincells, to keep me thinking and to let me constantly express myself.. Being in the army, and working now (maybe its just my working environment.. or its just me) doesn't really fulfill my needs to be expressive... and creative... at least previously, i will still have a plan.. wel.. not really a plan to do stuff... but at the very least, i will try to think of a way around problems... trying to find solutions... but now... i do think that i have trouble...just trying to think... even if problems pop up at work... i generally can't really be bothered....

there are times... where i'vej ust wish that i could just resign from work.. and enroll myself... it could be anywhere... laselle.... Nafa... poly again( though i will be a super old student)... MDIS....anywhere, just so that i can interact with people on a more constant basis... and able to hold meaningful discussions with them... haiz... right now... i don't really like to talk to people that i hardly know... cause one thing is that i on't know what to talk to them about... and another thing is that i generally can't really be bothered with them... at least back then in school, i will still try to interact abit with people from different classes... sometimes... i feel inferior & dumb when she can just talk & talk & talk & talk about everything under the sun... and i will be just like" oh..is it?? haha.. ok loh... " the usual expressions... without even following thru or giving her a solution or providing her with an answer so that she can reply to... and i feel bad too.. that my choice of words are so limited... that i can't really stimulate the intellactual side of her...

maybe i should juz quit, get a license and be a hawker selling wanton mee andhor-fun.... at least hawkers interact with all types of people everyday... and no, dun ask me why i thought of selling wanton mee and hor-fun.. i've just thought of that on the spot =P

so anyway... think i have blabbered enuff today... think i should read the newspaper more often... maybe that's why i am becoming so much less articulate these few years...