take that- patience

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txtq29e7KQo

Just have a little, patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration,
But any minute all the pain will stop,
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight, dont be too hard on my emotions

(Chorus) Cause I, need time,
My heart is numb, has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,

Just try and have a little patience,

I really wanna start over again,
I know you wanna be my salvation,
The one that I can always depend,
I'll try to be strong, believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me,

Cause I, need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience yeah,

Have a little patience, Yeah

Cause this scar runs so deep,
It's been hard,
But I have to believe,

Have a little patience,
Have a little patience,

wooh

Cause I, I just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try, and have a little patience,

Have a little patience,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little... Patience

reflections...

reflecting upon the last few weeks...

feel that I've really let her down.....
















i'm sorry.....

...... why am I affected by her words again....

Where am I so bothered abut his comments? I know that it is constructive criticism and that only a true friend like him would say things like that. But I am still pretty affected...


Got me thinking about several stuff...

Am I a good son to them..?

Had I been a good boyfriend to her?

Have I been a good friend to them?

Have I been a good brother to them?

Have I been a good uncle to them?

Have I been a good grandson to her??





I have fucked up in my studies... and I am still fucking up my studies..

I've fucked up in being a son... I'm coming to 25 soon.. and I'm still depending on them...

I've fucked up in my relationships....

I've fucked up as a friend...



Why is it that I am so apathetic in my apporach towards matters...

why is it that I am be so detached...

How is it that I can find it in my heart not to take her back even though she has given me countless chances in the past??

How is it that I can just treat my family for granted...

How is it that I don't really showm uch thoughts towards my friends...




shucks..... stop wallowing in pathetic self-pity.......

do something about it...






and you have been saying that for the past few few years....

and you still have not done anything...


you're just a pathetic little piece of shit...

And there we were, all hyped up about going to Bintan for our Christmas celebration in a nice sunny place..

And it had to rain the whole time…

TMD….

Fucked up Chirstmas….

Eating Binge

At the rate of consumption that I am going at currently, I am gonna accumulate lots and lots of calories, cholestrols and fats. I have been on an eating binge since last Friday lah

Friday: Went to Vivo City and ate quite a lot of stuff at Food Reuplic. Conclusion: The food there is really overpriced and not that worth it. A small cup of soy bean milk costs $1.50!!!

Saturday: Went for cousin's church wedding in the morning and had buffet lunch there. Being typical Singaporeans, I went for a few servings of food. At night, it was the wedding dinner, and as usual, there were like 10 dishes that were served. I was bloody bloated by the time desert came, but I still managed to finished up 2 bowls of it.

Sunday: June invited a bunch of us to her house for a pre-Christmas dinner gathering. She and her mum prepared a number of dishes which were pretty good and rich, especially the Oreo cheese cake. As usual, bloated at the end of the day.

Monday: Acocmpanied Joseph and sylvia to JB for makan and the ..erm.. "sourcing" for movies. We went to the usual Bak Ku Teh store and ordered a number of dishes and a pot of Chinese tea to go with it. It was really a pleasure to be eating such hot stuff when it was raining caaats and dogs at that time. Shiok!!

Tuesday: Met Kristy for a little bit of Christmas shopping and dinner. Bought a couple of stuff for KL, and a Red Power ranger SPD for KJ!! Think they will love the pressies!! Oh, and we had ramen at Ajisen after the shopping was done. The volcano ramen really didwonders for my running nose!!

Wednesday: Celebrated Grandma's 95th birthday at a Chinese restuarant located in a country lcub at Chua Chu Kang. Oh man, the servings were enormous lah. Ate and ate and ate and ate and ate. Poor Rina accidently drank a soup which contained pork unknowingly and she was very upset when she found out about it. Luckily, she seemed ok after a while. After the dinner, we proceeded home for the birthday cake. It was the Secret Recipe Chocolate Banana cake!! Damm bloody rich, creamy and fatenning, but oh so heavenly too!! Ate 2 large slices of it!! Muahahaha!!!!! Damm... think better go running later....

hurts...

it's really not about you.. it's all me...

If what I say cuts deep within you,

If my words pierce through your heart,

than I would rather keep it all inside of me,

cause I don't wish to see anyone close or dear to me to get hurt like that..

went to watched The Holiday earlier on at Vivo city. It is a romantic comedy starring Kate Winslet, Jude Law, Jack Black and Cameron Diaz. It's not a bad show and I would reccomend it for couples to watch.

Oh, thank you once again for the Gold Class treat. It is really a new experience and I enjoyed it very much!

Thanks!!

feeling of the day: misunderstooded

lightning nights are never a good time to go jogging....

or maybe its just because i've a slight pobia of it

Night jogging is the still the ultimate de-stresser. The adreneline rush of blood to the head and the sweat that profuse from the body is damm shiok lah!!

Wants of te moment:

GAP skinny jeans- damm nice

GAP white shirt: Minimalist at its best

Topman cardigan: Preppy look

Striped shirt with 2 breast pockets: something different

Adidas vintage sneakers: Favourite shoes of the moment now

Simple white and black T-shirt: Simple and nice

Queen Couture vintage T-shirt: Love the designs

Black Stussy T-shirts: Catering to the hip hop wannabe side of me

Stussy cap: As above

心如刀割....

that's how i am feeling now....

state of mind : confused

feelings: mixed

mentality: weird

hairstyle: chicken little

i look fucking retarded now...

...If I have somebody new... all these will be much easier for me to handle and there really won't be much to consider, ain't it....?

what is this strange feeling that i have...

after seeing you...

this feeling of sadness...

of ...regret....

stirring within of me...

when i met you....






what is this feeling....

this funny feeling...

that I had....

while watching you ......






why does my heart feel this way....

this feeling of "what could have been..."

of "what ifs" and "if only..."




my heart broke when I heard "I miss Kj..."

because I know.... that...

...never mind.....








why am I feeling this way....

I realised that 2 days of watching tv almost non-stop can make one almost slightly retarded and mentally unstable!! Very unproductive weekend....

Jay-z and the verve- brush your bitter sweet shoulders off

excellant remix!!!

.....I really don't want to hurt her like this....because....

..no matter what... she will always have a place in my heart....

...being with her... was one of the best times of my life....

....the good times with her...the bad times with her....

...what should I do....

have I really changed?

I have always thought that I am the same old me, regardless of the circumstances around me...

all i did was to offer my advice... and all of a sudden, I have changed because of that?

haizz.....

i guess its better for her to be angry....

hope that it will make things easier for her..

...

...








... hold on man... don't tear....

don't...

if you really want to know...

yes, i do miss you at times... and i do think abt you and the wonderful times we had...

if you really wish to know...

yes, there's still hurt inside of me.... especially when I think back on that day when i cried hugging you, and when I take a long look at the toys before I go to sleep...

if you really need to know,

yes, it was a big deal for me, trying to get over you... buying a pack of sticks the first thing I left your office, to get over it...

but..

as i said mention below, i am very emotionally detched...

and furthermore, my studies, my school work, my friends, my family, my social activities,

they help me heal my wounds.

they help me to get over stuff.

i guess i am not the same old me, when i get sad and depressed for a long period of time after a breakup...

maybe its because i'm older

maybe its because i want to concentrate on my school.

maybe its because i'm beginning to enjoy my singlehood....



why did I accept your decision?

it's because I thought that it might not be a bad thing, for us to be apart, to see what we really want...

Cause I could also feel that things were not going well between us...

Cause I did not want to be your hurdle....

cause that's what I really felt...


If you make a decision like this, then i'll just accept it.

i'm not like other guys,

I wun resist, I wun fight...

if you feel that its better for us, then I give you my blessings and walk away..

maybe its only in this aspect that I am abit similar to your ex... where we'll just accept your choice...



don't compare me with other guys, please...

you know what type of person I am...

I am me, so please just accept me for who I am...

and seriously, i am much happier, being me for what I am...








so yes, I do miss you and i do think abt you...

but i guess its not as much as i thought that it will be...



I know this will cause you pain and tears...

I'm sorry again, for I know I'll make you cry again...


I never intended to bring my inner thoughts out like this...
but if you really wish to know....

I think I am so emotionally detached...I frighten myself sometimes...

Polyclinic trip

Reached home at 6++ and concussed on the bed, only to wake up at ard 9 in the morning,shivering all over....

Damm... its the return of...

FEVER KID!!!!!

Think i caught a cold while I was sleeping. A major factor of my illness would be my dearest mum, who took my blanket away to sun, while leaving me all open, "enjoying" the cold wind being blown from the fan.

Wanted to just take a shower and pop some pills before heading to bed, but Mum asked me to go and visit the doctor at the polyclinic.

So off I went, shivering all over.

When I reached the place, I was like "OMBFG!!!" It was damm bloody packed lah!!!
LEt me see... I pre-registered at abt 940am.... REGISTERED at 1030am.... waited for 2 hours plus to see the doctor....and waited for another 20 min to collect the medicine...

Fuck, i think if I was having a heart attack or something, I would have died 10 times and I would still have to carry on waiting...

And the most infuriating thing is that when it was finally my bloody turn to see the doctor, the doctor took only about 5 min to assess me and she was done.

I was like :"WTFH.... I waited for 3 hrs ++ only to get a session that lasted that short??? Not a very good investment choice..."

Painful lesson learnt: I will never ever ever ever go to the polyclinic on a Saturday anymore.

Even after all these years, this song never fails to help me to get over the sadness....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BtUGh1khOeE

wah liew... why everyone predicting that I will turn gay....??

-_-""""

Sexy Back

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMlvqeISfIk

Verse 1]
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys don't know how to act
I think you're special whats behind your back
So turn around and ill pick up the slack.
Take em' to the bridge

[Bridge]
Dirty babe
You see these shackles
Baby I'm your slave
I'll let you whip me if I misbehave
It's just that no one makes me feel this way
Take em' to the chorus

[Chorus]
Come here girl
Go ahead, be gone with it
Come to the back
Go ahead, be gone with it
VIP
Go ahead, be gone with it
Drinks on me
Go ahead, be gone with it
Let me see what you're working with
Go ahead, be gone with it
Look at those hips
Go ahead, be gone with it
You make me smile
Go ahead, be gone with it
Go ahead child
Go ahead, be gone with it
And get your sexy on
Go ahead, be gone with it

Get your sexy on
Go ahead, be gone with it

[X6]

Get your sexy on

[Verse 2]
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys don't know how to act
Come let me make up for the things you lack
Cause your burning up
I gotta get it fast
Take em' to the bridge

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
I'm bringing sexy back
Them other boys watch while I attack
If that's your girl you better watch your back
Cause she'll burn it up for me and that's a fact
Take em' to the chorus
[Chorus]

I miss being young...

Ang Moh speaking Singlish, Thai Commercials and NTU funny lecturer!!

these clips are great!!

Caucasian kid speaking Singlish:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxIJ9swGFUQ&eurl=

Thai commercial:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-QA3-wT2k4&eurl=

NTU funny lecturer:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io

Jap Burger King commerical:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L1-qoOKUy4w&mode=related&search=

Jap irritating commercial:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AR-Iz1fts5M&mode=related&search=

Caught 2 movies over the past week. The first show was "The Departed" and the other was "Little Miss Sunshine"

Infernal Affairs is one of my favourite movie, thus when The Departed came out, I knew I had to go watch it, since it is a remake of the earlier. Jack Nicholson is really awesome in the show. As Frank Costello, the Irish mob boss, he terrifies everyone in the show. 1 particular scene I remember is when he was interogating Leonardo di Caprio to find out if he is the mole in the gang. I think he should be getting an Oscar for his efforts.

Overall, the film is good, but I preferred the Hong Kong version. The Hong Kong version is more stylised and the acting is more "distributed" among the actors.

I had no idea what I was getting into before watching Little Miss Sunshine. I had never heard of the show before and thus, I did not know what to expect. However, at the end of the show, there was no regret at all, as I throughly enjoyed myself. This show is about a family who takes on a road trip during the wekeend, so as to send the youngest daughter fro a beauty contest. It shows how the family got closer together over the forced weekend spent in the yellow Volkswagen van,which always breaks down. The whole theatre burst out in laughter hwenever the family has to push the van and run to hop on to it as the van is moving. Little Miss Sunshine is those type of feel good movies and I must say, I really felt better after watching it.

been watching dvds to keep myself occupied nowadays.

here's the ones that I have watched so far:


Sin City:




















This movie is adopted from the cult comic from Frank Miller and is divided into 3 stories. The whole movie is mostly in black and white, and is shot in a highly stylish way. I love the cool lines and the bloodbath. Of course, the babes certainly play a big part as well (Jessica Alba!!).

The Godfather:





















I have heard so much about this movie that I just have to get this. And based on what I have seen (I had seen about 4/5 of the show), it really is an excellant show. The story of the Corleone family is great! Marlon Brando and Al Paicino really excels in their role of Vito Corleone and Micheal Corleone respectively.

Batman Begins:

















Batman has always been my favourite supehero. This move, which explores its beginning had me quite excited when it came out, but alas, I didn't have the chance to see it on screen. So finally, I've gotten the chance to see it! Christian Bale gives a really good performance as Batman/Bruce Wayne. And the Batmobile really kick some asses!! But I must admit, I was expecting a little abit more. Well, at least the ending is very juciy, in that it is strongly hinted that the joker will be appearing in the next sequel!! Looking forward to it!!

"...you know i will aways love you right...??"

End...of a dance...

The boy met the girl,

and asked her for a dance.

The girl agreed,

and both of them started to dance.

As the dance started,

everything was perfect.

the chemistry, the feelings, the mood,

everything.

the boy thought that,

finally, here is someone who can be my dance partner,

for life...

everything just fell into place...perfectly...

but...

as the dance went on...

it seems... that there were steps and moves...

that both parties couldn't coordinate..

and it was getting difficult... to keep up to the girl...

the longer the dance... the harder it was....

though the boy still enjoyed the dance...

but the girl... wanted to move on...

and so when the music ceased...

the girl moved on to another stage...another dancefloor...

and the boy... just stood and watched her go...

and so it goes....

the dance comes ...to...an ....end....

my whiney, bitching post

been staying back late to study... damm tiring lah...but what to do, got so much more stuff to cover!!

so litttle time, so much to do!!

An uneventful life….. Is this what I have been living so far? Thinking back on my 24 years of existence, is it really that hard to recall any particular event that instantly brings a smile to my face, or a long sigh from my mouth? Milestones… hmm…..well, I do have a lot of memories, but milestones....

I guess the first thing that I have ever achieved is clearing the swimming test when I was in Pri 4 or 5.I recall that we had to swim probably 30 to 40 laps and swim a similar amount of laps while wearing pyjamas. Hmm…. But the memory is quite hazy… think it happened too long ago….. Since the memory is hazy, is it still considered a milestone?

And other stuff too that happened to me, which I felt was quite memorable, like going to getting much better than expected grades for my Os, going to poly (which I have taken a lot of flak for, but didn’t really regretted that much), enjoying my secondary school days, performing at NDP, SYF, getting an IPPT gold after failing the fitness test previously when I just got enlisted, the overseas trip with my pals…

Of course there were also the unpleasant ones, like the break-ups, the time when I broke down in army, Hazel’s demise, some silly stuff at work, doing badly for my exams in poly…

All of these are memories that I hold dear to me… but are they considered milestones that I have achieved in my life? What really constitutes a milestone? According to KGDD, milestones are important stages in one’s life that, no matter good or bad. Hmm… so have I reached any milestones in my life in that case?

Well, actually to me, what is important to me is that I have those memories that I have locked up inside of me, and that these memories, will stay with me for the rest of my life. They may not seem to be significant, but to me, they are important.

But looking back, I must admit that I have pretty much been drifting along most of the time. Sometimes, I will find myself floating towards a certain point, only to float elsewhere after a while. So now, I must really set some targets for myself and work towards getting them:

1- The most immediate target is to get a good degree by the time I graduate. Which means, study, study study!!!
2- To accomplish some stuff while schooling. Right now, I’m joining a club, but I have not been to their meetings yet. They are currently on some project, but will need to get to know more details first.
3- To get into a top investment bank after graduation. It will not be easy, but I have to work hard towards this.
4- Establish my career within 4 years of graduation. This means being ahead of my peers in terms of accomplishment in work.

So right now, my aim at this point is to really concentrate on school and on my work.

lousy attempt at being a poet

night's quiet,

warm and humid.

dark outside,

stars shining brightly.

peace at home

tranquilty's so fine.

sleep on bed,

filled with dreams.

candles flickering,

wax melting.

typing all so slowly,

understanding what's been happening.

night,

peaceful night.

The below sence happened while I was fetching KJ home:

Me: KJ, do you like Kristy Jie Jie?

KJ: Yes!

Me: Why?

KJ: Because Kristy Jie Jie always disturb you and hit your head!

Me: -_-"""

Today was Jenn's wedding, and being the Chinese Emcee ( yes...Chinese emcee...), I had to be there earlier for briefing. I could really tell that the gals were super exhausted from their Jie Mei activities earlier, cept for Joyce who is like a hyper active bunny with braces.

Rehearsed the script with my fellow emcee and did some last minute scribbling on speech cards, cause apparently they were going to sabo the unsuspecting couple onstage. Man, my Chinese writing really sucks lah. Can't even write simple words like 鸡蛋 or 解释!! And to think that I am the Chinese Emcee. Ha!!

Anyway, was abit nervous before the thing started, as this is my first time hosting a wedding, so there was a bit of stage fright. Luckily, due to my not so awesome experinces dancing onstage, I was still pretty ok when delivering the speech, although I felt that my voice was trembling abit. It got easier as I spoke more in my Jiat Kang Tan accent. However, during the toasting session, after I had counted to 3 for the people to start shouting "Yum Seng", I nearly fainted cause there wasn't anyone who was shouting. So I had to use the mike and get the ball rolling, although I got comments that I seemed abit enthusiastic about toasting the couple!

All, in all, in my awesome suit, and my awesome Jiat Kang Tan accent, I managed to pass through the whole event as a Chinese Emcee without any hiccups... Thus, from now onwards, I shall be known as Chinese Emcee Cheong!

Maybe I should do this more often...... NAH!!!!

Jacky Wu clip:

super lame la!!

http://podcast.blog.webs-tv.net/bing0317/podcast/571282

The haze is back!! And it's been causing me to have persistent coughing fits all the time. Damm it, the haze is so bad that I can smell the burning smell in the air as well. Can't even go out and jog cause I'm afraid that I might just collaspe halfway because of suffocation from the haze. I think I shall be staying indoors more often these few days... Now I understand why expatriates are leaving Hong Kong because of the horrendous air quality there. It really sucks to be coughing and feeling breathless all the time. Imagine it happening to kids....

On the plus side, which is totally irrelevant, at least Spore resembles Genting Highland in some ways now, because of the hazy atmosphere!!

Haha...awesome lame joke....

taking stock of my school life so far....

Marketing: Memorywork, meomorywork, memorywork!! and the lecturer talks in a funny accent.

Marcoecons: Help!!

Banking and Finance: I like the subject, but the lecturer is boring

Principles of Accounting: I like the lecturer, very mothery feeling, but its like revision to me!

Friends: I can count them with 1 hand

Revision: Not progessing as I had envisioned so far

Food: Cheap, cheap cheap!!

Air-conditioning: Its like being in the North Pole while attending lectures

Overall rating of school so far: 6/10

talk what you feel like saying,

talk what's on your mind

talk at the risk of hurting someone,

talk at the point of time....

or ...

think before you talk

think of the person before you talk

think of the consequences before you talk

think of the feelings before you talk...

talk the talk, walk the walk

what the hell, am I writing about?

Looking out of the window,

looking at the storm.

Feels like a reflection,

of the tempest deep within of me.

Raindrops falling from the sky,

just like the pieces of the shattered heart.

Dark clouds forming above,

just like angst in my mind.

Rain, rain, go away

come again another day.

Don't remain within me

and make me weak all over.

Words cut and pierce,

they are just like heartless spears.

they really do....

cut and pierce....

..........

.......

....


......

........it's just like 5 years ago all over again......

.......

where is she....??

it seems like a million blades are cutting through my heart every single time I breathe in the air of sorrow and regret around me..

taste of own medicine... bitter....

i really did it this time...

this is really 10 times jialat jialt case...

everything seems to be going wrong....

All my life, where I have been sheltered... a lot of stuff… I have not faced it myself… all along…

Perhaps that’s why…. When it comes to problems... I have never been truly able to face up to them…

It’s really nobody’s fault that I’ve a character of a small mouse…

Who hides up and curls up in its own little warm hole…whenever a problem appears..

Maybe it’s because I’m still a greenhorn when it comes to dealing with a relationship..

But how can that be an excuse when she has told me so many, many, many times already…

How can that be a valid reason when chances, after chances, after chances have been given to me…

The tears in her eyes….. the weariness in her tone….the jaded feeling in her……

It hurts me… to see her like that….…

But to her….it hurts even more…. Not to be able to receive….what she deserves…..

I ask myself all the time….. do I deserve someone like her….. but after all these….. I am starting to question myself… whether she deserves someone like me in the first place….

回想一下，可能从一开始，我们这个路程的出发点就不应该是这样开始的…..

If there is anything that I want….I just want her to be happy…..

You know you have to do something….

But what…

Think…think…think….

If I don’t want to lose her…

Just…think….

do i even deserve her.....?

do i have this right..?

maybe the cage should just open.. so that the bird can be free... free of the cage... that's constraining....

...and the bird can fly... away to the horizon... where the sunset is captivating... where there's blooming fields....

..where everything... is...so...much.....better...

i wonder.....

One down.. one more to go...

managed to clear the friggin Maths papers... (sigh of relief...)

good job done! (cheering myself on..)

Tired, sleepy..

ZZZzzzzzz

a piece of heaven....

I don't think I will ever forget this...

http://www.thecupid.com.sg/lovenotes.asp?id=10003

Curiousity saves the cat..

I was just browsing a book in the Popular bookshop in JB, while waiting for mum, when I chanced upon the following concept, which I found it to be pretty true to an extent :

A factor in keeping a relationship going strong, regardless if its in the early stages, or it has been going on for years, is that both parties must continuously be curious about each other.

If both parties are in a state of curiousity with each other, even though if one party is more knowledgeable than the other, at least they are able to hold meaningful and intellectual conversations. Similarly, if both parties are not curious about each other in a relationship, they will gradually lose interest in each other.

Interesting concept...

bo liao posts

i like to

1- watch movie

2- stay home to rot

3- spend time with the kids

4- hang out at kopitiams

5- read a book at libary

6- watch people while having a cup of kopi

7- listen to music all day

8- go excerise and get the highness after doing them

9- sleep and more sleep

10- watch dvds at home

Jay Chou new song

千里之外 MTV

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnxUg2rXzW8

it's abit weird to be seeing Fei Yu Qing singing along with Jay, but hey, I feel that its pretty neat!

different desires,

different wants,

different needs,

different ways,

different people,

different expectations

not enough...

it's still not enough...

have i not done enough...

or have i really not done enough..

i guess it's the later ba....

never mind...

just keep on trying...

it may be enough one day...

List of stuff that went wrong on Sat

1- Woke up at 6++ to prepare for football, only to hear snide remarks from mum. What a really good way to start off my morning...

2- Woke up early so that I could catch a bus to ensure that i will not be late. In the end, I ended up waiting 20 min for the bus to arrive, and was still late..

3- Arrive at the old SMU for the tournament, only to be told by the organisers that they did not reserve a slot for us.

4- Went to the basketball court near Ginza Plaza to play. Had some challengers to play with us. The game was pretty competitive, but still clean and fair. till one of our teammates, who is mildly retarded and bad tempered started spourting out vugulrities at one of the challengers. Almost had a ifght there, but the situation was defused. The mood pretty much soured from there..

5- Wanted to go to Keith's house to take a shower and change, but he went with the rest for lunch. In the end, went to the small and wet handicapped toilet at Ginza to change...

6- Missed my stop at Alujunied cause I overslept on the train...

7- Almost could not get the blue roses for Derek's gf in time.....

8- Couldn't catch the last train home, so had to take a cab...

9- There could actually be a freakin jam at that time on PIE. The signs at the PIE said that 3 lanes were closed!! My god..

10- Cab driver suggested taking an alternative route if that was the case. I agreed, and the driver drove to a small route that was beside the highway. Then, we realised that the so-called jam only lasted for a very short distance. More time could have been saved and less cab fare could have been incurred if we had stick to the highway...

it actually felt... different...

casting aside the shell..

it felt.. liberating...

it felt good...

it was like... being freed...

i think i am getting more and more quick-tempered....

think... i need to sort myself out...

not in a very right state of mind now...

i guess... i'll have to wait for her reply....

suddenly the same question is in my head...

why do you love me..??

love you..

for what you are...

love you...

when you are like a little girl..

love you...

for the way you smile..

love you..

for you being able to tolerate me..

love you...

whenever you tickle me..

love you...

for the way your dreams of us in the future...

love you...

for everything...




why do i love you...

i don't know...

just have that feeling...

ever since our eyes met that night...

when the both of us just fell... and fell... and fell...




love ya...

what do i want?

i just want to make things better

how?

treating you better

how?

understanding your needs better

how?

...

...

...

how.....?

We had a secondary sch class gathering at Shiwei's house on Sat. Well, it was supposed to be a bbq...but... seriously speaking, the bbq wasn't really a resounding sucess.... actually, it was pretty much a failure... The gathering was pretty ok, but the bbq itself was... *shake head*.... the choice of food was abit duh.. we had too much sussages, tiny prawns, stingray with no sambal (a travesty!!) and lots of salad. Oh yeah, we had 10 packets of bee hoon, and were left with about 5 packets in the end. Reason: the remaining bee hoon were somemore hidden and culsn' be found (thinking of ating bee hoon now..)

Celebrated Peiling's bd as well... which was itself a pretty much uneventful celebration..

Played drinking games...in fact we even had to play silent drinking games after we were warned in a threatening manner by the fucked up security guard. Fuck that guy, we weren't even noisy at all.. he seems to have a problem with us or something... fucking piece of shit...

anyway, the aim of the drinking games wasn't to make anyone drunk, but to finish up the bottles and bottles of soft drinks we had. I have never, ever drink so much freaking soft drinks in my life before lah!! Think i'm not going to touch any softdrinks for quite a while...

exams over!!

yeah...

how nice...

now time to tackle my assignments..

and that isn't very nice...

stuck in the middle of nowhere

am i really just...assuming...

am i just escaping.....

am i just ...not willing..to face what had been brewing...

what should i do...

where should i go....

what songs can be sung...to bridge the gap....

the gap...that's been widening....

the small crack... that is slowly... expanding...

time... or a lack of it...

oppotunities... or a lack of it...

excuses...or factors contributing to it...

i don't know...

i really don't know.....

1 less kaki to go out with, tok cock with, hang aoundwith..

take care bro!!

1 down,1 more to go

hmm.... felt that i did pretty ok for the test...

but i'm still feeling pretty worried...

Gorillaz videos:

Clint Eastwood
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hK41OG-HMIs

Dirty Harry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adcdbfIoeW4

John Legend videos:

Ordinary People
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4fvj25jM4nM

I Used To Love You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4EksgzSIDU

U2 video
One(not really the video, koz couldn't find it)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6P2jy_dzkM&mode=related&search=

Mood: Bad

Reason: Frigin headache

Solution: Sleep early

Nitezz

Roaches

Due to the rubbish chutes being fogged with pesticide earlier in the day, there were a lot of friggin dead roaches in the void deck.A couple of small roaches even found the strength to crawl into the house only to end up dead via 2 ways:

1- dying from the posion of the fog eventually
2-dying from the awesome powers of my mum's slippers

went to fetch Kj from school and we had a fun time trying to avoid stepping on the dead roaches. I have never seen so many dead roaches in the life before. The goose pimples still arises when I think about it. Eeee!!

kj's dead afraid of roaches, but somemore, in the lift, he can actually made the comment that he will use the slippers to kill the roaches.... Only to shrink back in fear when he saw the roaches when the lift door open...

-_-""""

right....

Only Fools rush in- Elvis Presly

Wise men say
Only fools rush in
But I can't help
Falling in love with you

Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I can't help
Falling in love with you

As the river flows gently to the sea
Darling so it goes
Something's are meant to be

Take my hand
Take my whole life too
But I can't help
Falling in love with you

As the river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Something's are meant to be

Take my hand
Take my whole life too
I can't help
Falling in love with you

For I can't help falling in love with you

Coldplay- The Scientist

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles, Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apar

tNobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles, Chasing tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Aah oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh (x4)

starting to have the blues....

feelings the blues....

getting the blues....

infected by the blues...

1 more week before it all ends...

oh...

1 decisive week before it ends....

coffee brewing skills

Useful skill learnt today:

no more worries about not having enuff coffee at home, cause i have just learnt how to make coffee!!


ok... i know that isn't exactly tat great...

but it's still useful nonetheless for a regular caffeine consumer like me!

like what i always say.... coffee's my favourite bitch!

i love you mummy

i love you father

i love you grandma

yeah... love ya all...

new music video from artic monkeys!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SEukS2YN9B8

and tt's what i would classify as a Siao Char Bo

Muscus Flow

Something that I've noticed that is happening to Kailin as well:

we kept having mucus flow down from our noses like the Niagara falls!!




yucks...

feeling mushy today

i know this is really mushy...

but hey, who cares man...

I LOVE YOU DARLING BABY!!!

and i miss you lots too....

and I really must state this:

Middle Eastern countries are only good for one thing: their oil fields.

without them, they're all fucked up.

Israel: Crazy bunch of people who don't know how to stop bombing innocent civilians

Hizbollah: Crazier bunch of people who not only do not know how to stop, but choose to provoke the Israelic army of all people.

Goes to show what their brains are made off after living in the desert...

and there are others..

USA: As usual, Mr Bush is doing what he does best, and that is making dumb decisions all the time

North Korea: Don't know what the hell is the dear leader Kim is doing, launching missle tests and making everyone pissed off. Can foresee another famine coming to North Korea again

Blair: Acting as a lapdog for Bush, like what he always does.

Conslusion:

Chinese rules!!

Wooo...

MILO PENG WON!!!!

ALL RIGHT!!!!!!

although i don't really catch the show, but Milo Peng has a very.... neighbourhood feeling to them that appeals from Ah Girls to Ah Yees to Ah Mas.

Woo....

Jay got voted off!!

oh well, he wasn't that great though (but he lives in Jurong West, so technically speaking, he is my fellow Jurong-er...whatever that is...never mind...).

but i was surprised to see Jonathon and Hady in the last 3.

Goes to show what Singaporeans appreciates...

how come Paul din get off... think must be those Ah Girls that find his mop of hair damm sexy lah.

Blind...all freaking blind..

and i must say this again: i hate getting sick on a wekeend...especially when i have lessons on that particular weekend...

shitty!!

Everybody's Changing by Keane

"Everybody's Changing"

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

a note to myself

you're fucked up... and screwed up....

how many times have shit happened...

and yet... the nest day...or next moment...

you behaved... as if nothing happened...

how many times had she..... gone through this with you...

again...and again...and again...and again...

why can't you be more assertive... and take control...

or speak up...

instead of bottling it up....

why must you choose ....to unbottle stuff out at hte wrong moment...

why can't you be more like ...Joseph...or Derek... or Yingwei...

you know something... you're always deriding Roy for the stupid stuff he does...

but hey, at least he's actually doing something... even though its pretty hopeless...

at least he tries...

have you?

You are really the most pathetic hypocrite who refuse to let anyone knows what you're thinking..

You're fucked up....

just simply fucked up..

I wonder to myself ...

does this gal really deserve you...

if you wanna hold on to her..

you better do something...

Just do something....

just....do.....it....anything...

you will... right??

will you??

don't pretend or assume anymore...

will you??

...please?

do not for a moment doubt the importance of you in my heart...



you're not the only one who's dropping tears..

i really shld have deleted my previous posts....

before you had the chance to read them...

if i knew this will happen....

perhaps i shld have been more sensitive...

or just kept quiet abt my feelings..



i'm sorry that i've hurt you..

sorry... i snapped...

and now i finally know....

why you gave me that attitude of yours when i went for the ceremony....

i expected a smiling face when i arrived there,

instead, what i saw was that grouchy you again.

the one with the black face.

the one that just snapped back at me at whatever things that I tried to say or ask.

seriously, whatever enthusiam that I had was all ruined by your attidue....

you're not the only one who can get irritated....



you asked: ...if u were attending a FREN's graduation...u'd BRING SOMETHING rite?

my answer: no, i would not, unless someone suggested it.

there.

you'll think:

" oh my, how could someone be so thoughtless and be so lacking in basic courtesy??"

well, sad to say,

to stupid and brainless people like us,

like what you always think about me,

and always emphasizing in front of not only me, but your family and friends,

no, this act does not comes nautral to me.

I guess this boils down to me being brought up in a stupid and brainless culture.

stupid, brainless people like me with no basic courtesy, who totally din know what had happened when you just shook off my hand and went off in a puff just like that during that library trip.



I know that you're getting tired of me...

but do you know something?

I'm also getting fed up with your attitude..

13th July 2006

things seems to be growing... apart...between us...

think she's getting tired of me...

tired of trying to get me to join something that she's in..

but why can't she understand..

that this is something i am not interested in...

this is affecting us...

this is not the first time le..

that time it was CHC, and now this...

and it's not as if I did not try..

haizz...

we really seems to be living in increasingly different worlds now...

What type of Dog am i?

Edmund, you're a Golden Retriever!

No bones about it, you're a popular, fun-loving Golden Retriever. Adored by all and too cool for school, you're extroverted and enthusiastic. Your magnetic personality makes you the life of any bash. Since you're a true people-dog, you genuinely love all kinds of social gatherings. Going to parties, dinners, and other shindigs is the best way to add faces to your constantly growing circle of friends. But besides being on the social A-list, you're a confident, well-rounded pup who's definitely something to bark about. Pretty accomplished at anything you set your mind to, your sunny nature and winning ways make you one of everyone's favorite dogs. Woof!


hmm....

me being a golden retriever pretty suits me to a T now, considering I've just coloured my hair!

7th July 2006

Music that i absolutely dig right now:

Gnarls Barkley- Crazyis an excellant track...and the only track that I have from them.

DJ Danger Mouse- Any songs from Grey Album. This fella is a damm genius, combining Jay-Z and Beatles together.

Damien Rice- He sings like he's gonna cry any moment...which in this case is a good thing. The Blower's Daughter and Cold Water are 2 recomended tracks.

Jay-Z - Greatest rapper alive

Kanye West- Second greatest rapper alive

Kings of Convience- A surprising delight in the way they can make such beautiful music just using acoustic guitars and a tender voice.

The White Stripes- Jack White is a genius.

Artic Monkeys- They are like a breath of fresh air. The energy from this band just hits you in the face.

Joss Stone- This young British gal sings like she's been around forever. Excellant soulful voice.

U2- Classic. "One" is really a rock anthem. Now starting to sort of re-discover them by searching for their past hits. Bono rocks!!

Sergio Mendes- King of Bosa Nova

The Postal Service- Indie music at one of its best

Norah Jones- Wonderful, wonderful singer.

Gorillaz- Funky, weird, alternative, pop, rap, reagge, electronic, etc all fused into this anime band.

Franz Ferdinand- The best Scottish band around!!!

Wang Lee Hom- He is my Gai Shi Ying Xiong

John Legend- He brings the soul back into soul music

World Cup

World cup's here!!

Impressive teams so far:

Argentina- they are freaking awesome, although i suspect that they might be peaking too soon

Ivory Coast- They may be out, but their fast and powerful style of football is exciting and sizzling to watch

Portugal- Not bad in midfeild and defence, but they could certainly do something about their strikeforce

Spain- Torres is freaking fast, Villa is efficient, and Puyol is a shaggy beast!!!

Teams that have flattered to deceive:

England- Boring, one-dimensional football style and absolutely hopeless in attack.

Brzail- didn't catch their match, but from what i read, they don't seems to be very impressive. Nontheless, their squad is really quite terrifying, and i think that they'll warm up slowly as the tournament progress

Czech Republic- Destroyed by Ghanians. They need more muscle in their midfield and more varieties in their apporach. It's easy to shut them out if one can neutralise their central midfield

France- Need to change their tactics so suit Henry. No choice or other alternatives, as Henry remains their most dangerous player. Oh, and take out Vierra and put in Makelele.