Friday, September 22, 2006

taking stock of my school life so far....

Marketing: Memorywork, meomorywork, memorywork!! and the lecturer talks in a funny accent.

Marcoecons: Help!!

Banking and Finance: I like the subject, but the lecturer is boring

Principles of Accounting: I like the lecturer, very mothery feeling, but its like revision to me!

Friends: I can count them with 1 hand

Revision: Not progessing as I had envisioned so far

Food: Cheap, cheap cheap!!

Air-conditioning: Its like being in the North Pole while attending lectures

Overall rating of school so far: 6/10
talk what you feel like saying,

talk what's on your mind

talk at the risk of hurting someone,

talk at the point of time....

or ...

think before you talk

think of the person before you talk

think of the consequences before you talk

think of the feelings before you talk...

talk the talk, walk the walk

what the hell, am I writing about?

Friday, September 15, 2006

Looking out of the window,

looking at the storm.

Feels like a reflection,

of the tempest deep within of me.

Raindrops falling from the sky,

just like the pieces of the shattered heart.

Dark clouds forming above,

just like angst in my mind.

Rain, rain, go away

come again another day.

Don't remain within me

and make me weak all over.

Words cut and pierce,

they are just like heartless spears.

they really do....

cut and pierce....

Thursday, September 14, 2006

..........

.......

....


......

........it's just like 5 years ago all over again......

.......

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

where is she....??
it seems like a million blades are cutting through my heart every single time I breathe in the air of sorrow and regret around me..
taste of own medicine... bitter....

i really did it this time...

this is really 10 times jialat jialt case...

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

everything seems to be going wrong....

Monday, September 11, 2006

All my life, where I have been sheltered... a lot of stuff… I have not faced it myself… all along…

Perhaps that’s why…. When it comes to problems... I have never been truly able to face up to them…

It’s really nobody’s fault that I’ve a character of a small mouse…

Who hides up and curls up in its own little warm hole…whenever a problem appears..

Maybe it’s because I’m still a greenhorn when it comes to dealing with a relationship..

But how can that be an excuse when she has told me so many, many, many times already…

How can that be a valid reason when chances, after chances, after chances have been given to me…

The tears in her eyes….. the weariness in her tone….the jaded feeling in her……

It hurts me… to see her like that….…

But to her….it hurts even more…. Not to be able to receive….what she deserves…..

I ask myself all the time….. do I deserve someone like her….. but after all these….. I am starting to question myself… whether she deserves someone like me in the first place….

回想一下,可能从一开始,我们这个路程的出发点就不应该是这样开始的…..

If there is anything that I want….I just want her to be happy…..

You know you have to do something….

But what…

Think…think…think….

If I don’t want to lose her…

Just…think….
do i even deserve her.....?

do i have this right..?

maybe the cage should just open.. so that the bird can be free... free of the cage... that's constraining....

...and the bird can fly... away to the horizon... where the sunset is captivating... where there's blooming fields....

..where everything... is...so...much.....better...

Sunday, September 10, 2006

i wonder.....

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

One down.. one more to go...

managed to clear the friggin Maths papers... (sigh of relief...)

good job done! (cheering myself on..)

Tired, sleepy..

ZZZzzzzzz

Sunday, September 03, 2006

a piece of heaven....

I don't think I will ever forget this...

http://www.thecupid.com.sg/lovenotes.asp?id=10003

Curiousity saves the cat..

I was just browsing a book in the Popular bookshop in JB, while waiting for mum, when I chanced upon the following concept, which I found it to be pretty true to an extent :

A factor in keeping a relationship going strong, regardless if its in the early stages, or it has been going on for years, is that both parties must continuously be curious about each other.

If both parties are in a state of curiousity with each other, even though if one party is more knowledgeable than the other, at least they are able to hold meaningful and intellectual conversations. Similarly, if both parties are not curious about each other in a relationship, they will gradually lose interest in each other.

Interesting concept...

Saturday, September 02, 2006

bo liao posts

i like to

1- watch movie

2- stay home to rot

3- spend time with the kids

4- hang out at kopitiams

5- read a book at libary

6- watch people while having a cup of kopi

7- listen to music all day

8- go excerise and get the highness after doing them

9- sleep and more sleep

10- watch dvds at home