take that- patience

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txtq29e7KQo

Just have a little, patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration,
But any minute all the pain will stop,
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight, dont be too hard on my emotions

(Chorus) Cause I, need time,
My heart is numb, has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,

Just try and have a little patience,

I really wanna start over again,
I know you wanna be my salvation,
The one that I can always depend,
I'll try to be strong, believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me,

Cause I, need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience yeah,

Have a little patience, Yeah

Cause this scar runs so deep,
It's been hard,
But I have to believe,

Have a little patience,
Have a little patience,

wooh

Cause I, I just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try, and have a little patience,

Have a little patience,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little... Patience

reflections...

reflecting upon the last few weeks...

feel that I've really let her down.....
















i'm sorry.....

...... why am I affected by her words again....

Where am I so bothered abut his comments? I know that it is constructive criticism and that only a true friend like him would say things like that. But I am still pretty affected...


Got me thinking about several stuff...

Am I a good son to them..?

Had I been a good boyfriend to her?

Have I been a good friend to them?

Have I been a good brother to them?

Have I been a good uncle to them?

Have I been a good grandson to her??





I have fucked up in my studies... and I am still fucking up my studies..

I've fucked up in being a son... I'm coming to 25 soon.. and I'm still depending on them...

I've fucked up in my relationships....

I've fucked up as a friend...



Why is it that I am so apathetic in my apporach towards matters...

why is it that I am be so detached...

How is it that I can find it in my heart not to take her back even though she has given me countless chances in the past??

How is it that I can just treat my family for granted...

How is it that I don't really showm uch thoughts towards my friends...




shucks..... stop wallowing in pathetic self-pity.......

do something about it...






and you have been saying that for the past few few years....

and you still have not done anything...


you're just a pathetic little piece of shit...

And there we were, all hyped up about going to Bintan for our Christmas celebration in a nice sunny place..

And it had to rain the whole time…

TMD….

Fucked up Chirstmas….

Eating Binge

At the rate of consumption that I am going at currently, I am gonna accumulate lots and lots of calories, cholestrols and fats. I have been on an eating binge since last Friday lah

Friday: Went to Vivo City and ate quite a lot of stuff at Food Reuplic. Conclusion: The food there is really overpriced and not that worth it. A small cup of soy bean milk costs $1.50!!!

Saturday: Went for cousin's church wedding in the morning and had buffet lunch there. Being typical Singaporeans, I went for a few servings of food. At night, it was the wedding dinner, and as usual, there were like 10 dishes that were served. I was bloody bloated by the time desert came, but I still managed to finished up 2 bowls of it.

Sunday: June invited a bunch of us to her house for a pre-Christmas dinner gathering. She and her mum prepared a number of dishes which were pretty good and rich, especially the Oreo cheese cake. As usual, bloated at the end of the day.

Monday: Acocmpanied Joseph and sylvia to JB for makan and the ..erm.. "sourcing" for movies. We went to the usual Bak Ku Teh store and ordered a number of dishes and a pot of Chinese tea to go with it. It was really a pleasure to be eating such hot stuff when it was raining caaats and dogs at that time. Shiok!!

Tuesday: Met Kristy for a little bit of Christmas shopping and dinner. Bought a couple of stuff for KL, and a Red Power ranger SPD for KJ!! Think they will love the pressies!! Oh, and we had ramen at Ajisen after the shopping was done. The volcano ramen really didwonders for my running nose!!

Wednesday: Celebrated Grandma's 95th birthday at a Chinese restuarant located in a country lcub at Chua Chu Kang. Oh man, the servings were enormous lah. Ate and ate and ate and ate and ate. Poor Rina accidently drank a soup which contained pork unknowingly and she was very upset when she found out about it. Luckily, she seemed ok after a while. After the dinner, we proceeded home for the birthday cake. It was the Secret Recipe Chocolate Banana cake!! Damm bloody rich, creamy and fatenning, but oh so heavenly too!! Ate 2 large slices of it!! Muahahaha!!!!! Damm... think better go running later....

hurts...

it's really not about you.. it's all me...

If what I say cuts deep within you,

If my words pierce through your heart,

than I would rather keep it all inside of me,

cause I don't wish to see anyone close or dear to me to get hurt like that..

went to watched The Holiday earlier on at Vivo city. It is a romantic comedy starring Kate Winslet, Jude Law, Jack Black and Cameron Diaz. It's not a bad show and I would reccomend it for couples to watch.

Oh, thank you once again for the Gold Class treat. It is really a new experience and I enjoyed it very much!

Thanks!!

feeling of the day: misunderstooded

lightning nights are never a good time to go jogging....

or maybe its just because i've a slight pobia of it

Night jogging is the still the ultimate de-stresser. The adreneline rush of blood to the head and the sweat that profuse from the body is damm shiok lah!!

Wants of te moment:

GAP skinny jeans- damm nice

GAP white shirt: Minimalist at its best

Topman cardigan: Preppy look

Striped shirt with 2 breast pockets: something different

Adidas vintage sneakers: Favourite shoes of the moment now

Simple white and black T-shirt: Simple and nice

Queen Couture vintage T-shirt: Love the designs

Black Stussy T-shirts: Catering to the hip hop wannabe side of me

Stussy cap: As above

心如刀割....

that's how i am feeling now....

state of mind : confused

feelings: mixed

mentality: weird

hairstyle: chicken little

i look fucking retarded now...

...If I have somebody new... all these will be much easier for me to handle and there really won't be much to consider, ain't it....?