i know you are the one for me.


i know i want to spend my old years with you.


i know i want to pass on before you do, so that i wouldn't suffer being alone should you go first.


if the skies were to open a hole, i would want to reach out for the stars and pluck one for you


if my heart does not know how to love one day, it will happen because you may not be there anymore


all in all, after all the above,


i just want to say,


i love you...

note to myself:

there are things that are beyond you, things that you can't change, and things that you should accept

but i can't take the fact that despite doing things, things are still not working out

been a bloody six months already, and yet results have been pathetic to say the least

what do i need to do to change this.....or is this really beyond my fucking control....

needing a break......

looking forward to it....

damm fucking tired....

i kinda miss blogging in a way

it gives me an avenue to express my thoughts, my frustrations, my feelings and my everything

someone gets upset if i do this

others get upset if i do that

do everything, yet the whole world gets upset

don't do anything, everyone will get upset

i can never do anything right to please everybody

maybe everything may be better if i just die

it sucks to be me at times